Well, I did it...

I checked the box on my "intent to return" form to LCA that said "No, I do not plan on returning to teach at LCA for the 2008-2009 school year." Wow. I cried. Am I excited/happy about knowing I will be at home with my little Caleb next year? Definitely yes. Am I also scared out of my mind about how we're going to do it, financially? Yes, even though I KNOW God will take care of us. Am I sad that I'm going to stop doing what I've done the past 6 years, where I feel comfortable and know what to expect (mostly) each day? YES. I'm really going to miss what I do, my little windowless classroom that is always too hot or too cold, depending on the season, my little smiling uniformed students, my constantly disorganized desk and closet, the slow copy machine (even though it's brand new), the amazing support of loving parents, the great staff, and most of all, being able to constantly teach children about the love of God. But it felt good to make a decision, put it in writing, and know that God will bless this LEAP of faith. It makes the whole "becoming a mommy" thing more real as well...wow, it's really going to happen. I'm really going to become a mother. You would think my rapidly expanding stomach would be enough to make it real, but this really did it for me...